I'm Sorry.

I believe I should stop talking. It's really not helping anybody. Don't worry, I'm not going to go all 'I hate myself' but I CAN be a real idiot sometimes. Like now. I suspect I'm being a bit of an idiot now. Whenever I get angry or upset, I can react in two ways: go intense, or the complete opposite, be passive aggressive. A little weird how things all work out. And I feel really bad for my friends. I truly do. Again, not saying I'm Satan, and why would they ever talk to me, but, you know, it must be hard to be friends with me. At times. It's hard to talk to people, period. And it never helps when you're arguing on chat, or IM. Nobody can hear the sound of your voice. You can't type fast enough. Words are hard to understand. Because online, everything is based on conversational words. You can't use your voice to show your feelings, happy or sad. No, what you've gotta now do is pray that the way you're wording this sentence can come across with the right additude. Sounds hard, right? For example: I'm honestly hoping that this post sounds relaxed, just a normal person explaining something. However, depending on the reader, it could sound as if I'm desperately ranting. And yeah.
Truth, I love my friends. They're all amazing in many, many ways. I just hate feeling so misunderstood when I'm having a conversation. I dunno, I don't always...but it just makes me feel stupid, shallow, and pretty damn acerbic. And, I hope they don't see me that way. I hope I don't come across as insane as I feel sometimes. I'm pretty intense, and I've got a fair share of emotions. I can be normal, relaxed, fun, laid-back. And I usually am, on the inside. Maybe they get that. They're all geniouses, after all.